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Coming in February, 2007 (National Eating Disorders Awareness Month)!


Enough of Suffering!

March 16, 2007


I want to share with you some thoughts prompted by some of the mail I've received since GAINING's publication...

We live in a how-to world that trains us to demand quick fixes and instant solutions. So it should come as no surprise that people in the grip of eating disorders want to know “how to” recover. But this question reflects an assumption that there is a single, one-size-fits-all solution for these deeply internal and complex problems. As anyone who has experienced or studied them knows, there is no single way in to an eating disorder. How could there be a single way out?

I fully understand the hunger behind this comment. Just tell me what I have to do to get free of this suffering! But ultimately, freedom comes with self-awareness and self-acceptance. Because each of us has a different “self,” shaped by a different temperament, interests, desires, and experiences, we must each find our own ways to the pursuits and passions and people that best nourish us.

The desire for a prescription also reflects the black-and-white thinking that gives rise to eating disorders in the first place. We get into trouble because we embrace what researchers call the “overvalued ideal” of perfection as suffering. This notion of perfection, I believe, lies closer to the true heart of eating disorders than the ideal of physical thinness. And we take it directly from our Western religious and philosophical traditions.

I’ve been reading the extraordinary new book by Sharon Begley, Train Your Mind, Change Your Brain, which traces the efforts of scientists to understand why and how Buddhist traditions physically change the brain to make people happier and more peaceful. Early in the book, I was struck by Begley’s observation that Buddhist traditions equate perfection not with faith, but with insight; and the ultimate goal in Buddhism is for all sentient (feeling) beings to achieve release from suffering. That goal applies not to angels in paradise but to all of us here on earth.

I’m not suggesting that we all become Buddhists, but I am suggesting that we consider how our bodies and minds mirror the cultural messages that surround us, not only in fashion magazines but in our schools and churches and homes, and that we recognize that we can choose which values and assumptions to mirror, and which to question. Just because we live in a Western culture, it does not have to follow that we act out through our very bodies the Puritanical values of our neighborhood’s first settlers. Yet, in a strange way, that’s exactly what many of us have unconsciously done when developing an eating disorder.

Freeing ourselves, then, means questioning who we are not only deep in our genes and souls, but also who we are in the context of our family’s and culture’s history and spiritual beliefs. It means choosing which of our innate temperaments make us strong and healthy and which put us at risk. It means learning to maximize traits that empower us and redirect traits that are causing us problems. And one way we accomplish this is by changing our relationship with the world around us.

For example, if I’m very sociable, that’s likely to be a source of strength. But if I get very anxious in disorder, that’s problematic. Creative thinking is the key to resolving this. One woman discovered that a career in architecture gave her a way to channel her need for order into a satisfying form of creativity that also fostered a healthy balance between human company and independent solitude. This career released her from the particular kind of suffering that her eating disorder represented – which had been fueled by guilt over the sacrifices her family had made to put her into a top college. Her family had suffered for her, so her eating disorder (and Western tradition) was telling her she had to suffer in return. But actually, what she needed was to figure out what gave her joy! Positive passion, not suffering, was the “solution.”

The tricky part is that we all have different passions. For one person, horses may hold the key to recovery. For another, painting does. For another, teaching is the path to joy. Love is at the core, I believe, for all of us. But we each experience and express love in different ways.

Humans are not one-size-fits-all beings. This makes recovery complicated and unpredictable. But it’s also what makes our collective experience of life so thrilling.

Be well!
Aimee Liu

PS. If you live near DC or Charlottesville, VA, I hope you can make it to one of my talks next week (March 21 in DC and March 23 in C'ville). For details, visit www.aimeeliu.net

below for more about Aimee's books & work.

Anthologies of fiction and nonfiction that Aimee has edited or contributed to.
a suspenseful novel of rescue and redemption set in Central Asia at the start of the Cold War, featuring two unforgettable heroines whose fates are irrevocably intertwined.
The unforgettable tale of star-crossed love that spans four decades and two continents.
A young photographer wrestles with her repressed past and identity as an Amerasian in New York's Chinatown. Now back in print after more than a decade, FACE is Aimee's first novel.
Work on Eating Disorders
While there are numerous memoirs available chronicling individual women’s struggles with anorexia, bulimia, and other eating disorders, this is the first book to bring together many people’s stories to create a complete and candid picture of the recovery process. Aimee Liu has skillfully brought together firsthand accounts of recovery to create a realistic roadmap for the journey. This book also includes informational sidebars, written by professionals in the field, on topics including treatment options, choosing the right therapist, the pros and cons of medication, how parents and spouses can help, and much more.
How do anorexia and bulimia impact life AFTER recovery? GAINING is one of the first books about eating disorders to connect the latest scientific insights to the personal truth of life before, during, and especially after anorexia and bulimia.
America's first memoir of anorexia, and one of the earliest books about eating disorders, originally published in 1979
Craft & Criticism
Resources and suggestions for students and fellow writers
Aimee's latest book reviews